Too Soon?

10 12 2013

Is it strange that I feel this calm already? Or normal? Am I in denial? I don’t feel like I am. I know that what happened sucked, and sucked big-time. I think that it’s just that being single feels great right now, because I was so tired of worrying about every little thing he did. I dunno. Maybe I need to stop thinking about it.





Crying, Inside and Out

3 12 2013

I am so full of conflicted ideas and emotions right now. One person will say he’s done, another that he’s cheating, and yet another that he just needs space. Why did he just simply stop texting me? And in the middle of the day, at that? Yes, we had two huge fights, but true love is supposed to withstand all of that crap.

The one good thing that has come out of this sad situation so far is that I now can see who really has my back. That I actually do, indeed, have friends. And that I can make it through anything with all of their love and support. The two lucky pennies I found today must mean something, and something good. I just want to be happy.





Goodbye Should …

30 07 2013

Goodbye /Should be saying that to you by now, shouldn’t I? /Laying down a law that I live by/ Well, maybe next time

Maybe I need to stop quoting songs, but when they make sense to me I feel a need to express the awesomeness of it somewhere. I am just trying not to be miserable.





I hate to break…

8 07 2013

I hate to break it to you, babe
But I’m not drowning
There’s no one here to save





Sick of it All

7 07 2013

Can’t anyone just treat me RIGHT? Seriously? You can say what you want, but I deserve better treatment. Tired of it.





Headache

22 06 2013

Ugh. I didn’t sleep very well last night. I was tossing and turning, worrying about everything and anything that could go wrong in my life within the next year or so. I have such a headache now on top of the tiredness. That’s what happens when you eat too much Indian food I guess. But man, I could eat that stuff all day! Especially plain naan. DELICIOUS!





So I’m at a Point

21 06 2013

Where I’m not unhappy or bored by any means. Most of the time I’m still on cloud nine. Having him want and need me is more than I ever asked for (well, no, I actually hoped and prayed for it every day for months, but anyway… ;P). It’s just that when you put someone on a pedestal, and then find out that even being in a relationship with that person has its trials and tribulations, it can be somewhat of a…bummer? That’s not my kinda lingo at all but it’s more lighthearted than some alternatives. It’s just that I tend to put up with a lot to stay in a relationship, and I really don’t wanna end up blowing up at him sometime down the line. How do you work this relationship thing? I really don’t have that much experience given that my last relationship lasted two months at its longest point (long story that I’m NOT getting into). Plus that was when I was seventeen. This is really my first big-girl relationship in my opinion. There’s a lot at stake, in more ways than one, and I need to tread carefully. I’m still super-happy though 🙂